CHAINS
Living lies I don’t believe
Feeding on the ghost of misery
Sick of suffering, sick of fear
Closing doors, open wounds
Something twitches, something moves
There’s no healing, there’s no feeling,
There’s nothing left to kill
There’s no way out
Is this the way it’s supposed to be
There’s only doubt
Chains on my mind no way to break free
Craving for a new direction
Blurring images, faster still
Compulsive obsession, addictive repression
Holding tight onto this bitter pill
Cold lonely, mirrors edge
Flowing backwards, river red
Crawling through the charred remains
I cannot wait until I do it again
There’s no way out
Is this the way it’s supposed to be
There’s only doubt
Chains on my mind no way to break free
Falling backwards on a blunted cross.
Nothing gained, all is lost
No flicker when the candle dies
Just the stench of forgotten lies
Black ice racing through my veins
Who’s to be the judge of what’s insane?
Falling down with a sickening pulse
Earth to earth, dust to dust
There’s no way out
Is this the way it’s supposed to be
There’s only doubt
Chains on my mind no way to break free
There’s no way out
It's not the way it’s supposed to be
There’s only doubt
Chains on my mind no way to break free
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CRANK
Nowhere to run
Nowhere to hide
No time left
Walk through the valley
Into the shadow of death
In a swirling pool of hate
and senseless violence
Oppress with politics
Mutilate the silence
Spilling blood, ghetto streets
Television fodder
Behind your mansion gates
Ignore the slaughter
Through years of lies and liaise faire
Die in horror
Razor blades and needle aids
There’s no tomorrow
Nowhere to run
Nowhere to hide
No time left
Run through the valley, into the shadow of death
(come on, let’s crank this motherfucker up)
Spilling blood, ghetto streets
Millions die in horror
Safe behind your mansion gates
Can you ignore the slaughter?
Nowhere to run
Nowhere to hide
No time left
Crawl through the valley
You are the shadow of death
Motherfucker
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In a dream, I saw you and knew you were gone
My premonition, a vision of life without you
In a moment, I knew I’d be sad
My adoration smothered like a candle without breath
Then you’re gone
My heart lies empty at the loss of your touch
And so it shall be
Barren
Silent
Alone
Laying in state from the pain of your last goodbye.
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DARKNESS
Given to sacrifice
My heart slowly burns
It’s a cancer that’s rising
It’s come to take what I have earned
The contamination
Of waters through I tread
Leaving traces of sadness
On the places where I have bled
I can feel this disease
Growing inside of me
And though you think it’s obscene
In the darkness it’s beautiful
Driven to madness
Through years I might have learned
It’s taken all I can give
And given nothing in return
Indecency
It’s profanity
And it’s stopping for no one
As it’s tearing through me
It’s crawled into my mind
Leaving nowhere to hide
Now it may seem like a lie
But in the darkness it’s beautiful
Exigency
Sucks the life out of me
And in the light I can’t see
But in the darkness it’s beautiful
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DESCENT
(Who should say, the dream has ended?)
(Welcome to the wonderful world)
Did you come here just to seek out pain?
Did you find it in a place unexpected?
Turn the corner, and step outside your mind
Finding solace
In a world you rejected
I cannot help you
I cannot even breath
My religion is I just don’t believe
Everyone tells the truth
About their lies
No one lives
But everybody dies
Black world spins on confusion
When even your life is for sale
Do you really think about it, (no)
Drown in the debris of our shattered myths
Get crushed in the machinery
I feel the knife blade enter over and over
And watch the life flowing out of me
Embrace madness hold on, caress it
Nurture it or it will die
Do you really want to think about about it (no)
Chaos is freedom
Order are chains
I hope you find this world
Without end
(Long descent into hell)
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FACE AGAINST THE WALL
A slow pain of forgotten sorrow, creeps
Across my heart
I eats, away
To the point of death
Tendrils of silence expand
Face against the wall
The scream, the shock
Mortal to mortar
Go into the pain and remove yourself
Lips smirk, with desire.Love is only a word, she feels
Alone
I do nothing
When all is dead there is no hope
Drive and drive again
See me and I scream
Go into the pain
Go into the pain
I gorge, stupid minds
Fuck them I will
What hey, reckless abandon
Go into the pain
Drive and drive again
Face agent the wall
Against the wall
Face against the wall.
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GRAVITY
It seems so hard to find the simple things I need
Everything I’ve ever wanted is just beyond my reach
Everything I ever was
And all I want to be
Trapped somewhere inside myself,Contained by gravity
You found the door to all my insecurity
Words like knives that cut me deep
As they’re tearing into me
Nothing that you said you wanted is what turned out to be
Words like chains that hold me down
The weigh like gravity
It will not ever let me be
It keeps pressing down on me
It seems like only yesterday, you said goodbye to me
You cut me down and shut me out, and left me here to bleed
All I want to do is fly
You have clipped my wings
You push me to the ground
You’re just like gravity
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HAPPY
I live my life in solitude
In walls I built so high
And every time I punch a hole through themI feel like I could die
I live my life in a dark room
Surrounded by my sin
And every time I see the light of day
The pain comes flooding in
I search for hope
I search for strength
I search for how to survive
I live in darkness
I live in pain
I live to stay alive
Cause what I got doesn’t make me happy
What I got doesn’t make me feel
What I got doesn’t make me happy
What I got doesn’t make me real
I live my life in misery
With pain that won’t subside
And every time I get outside myself, it pulls me back inside
I search my conscience
I search my soul
I search deep inside
I find no solace
Find no forgiveness
I find nowhere I can hide
Cause what I got doesn’t make me happy…
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IT ENDS THE SAME
(Aren't you even going to say hello?)
(I thought you'd be dying to see me)
(I'm a killer. I kill with my cunt)
Coming to the edge
He severs the cord
I can’t stand this pain
I can’t take it any more
Crying
Screaming
Pleading
He falls to his knees
Begging for mercy
God please let me be free
I can’t take this any more
It’s tearing me apart
Like being nailed to the cross
Like being stabbed in the heart
And it seems to be the same thing
Again and again
Looking for an answer and an outlet for the pain
And it ends the same again.
(Go ahead and pick one, Sir. It's all the same in the end)
I thought you'd be dying to see me)
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LONELY SEA OF PAIN
Black as night it comes to me
Lock the door and lose the key
Running through these fields of flame
Eyes ever burning with the shame
Never ending spiral down
Paradise lost, never found
On and on the river flows
Ever building, panic grows
Wasted life spilling on the floor
Swept from the decks 'til there is no more
Over and over and over again
This lonely sea of pain
Reaching but there's no one near
Screaming but no one can hear
Like a whisper in the breeze
Like a drop upon the seas
Hours melting into days
Paralyzed by tears of rage
Tell me if this life's not sick
Then why do we all drown in it
Wasted life spilling on the floor
Swept from the decks 'til there is no more
Over and over and over again
This lonely sea of pain
Aimless passions, daggers thrust
Another dream has has turned to rust
Over and over and over again
This lonely sea of pain
As the years go screaming past
Nothing ever seems to last
Over and over and over again
This lobely sea of pain
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PARASITE
Look so sharp, the needle’s in
A rabid kiss, beneath my skin
Pain so deep as it burrows in
Makes me scream
Oh My God I can’t do this again
Take a breath, just one more
Then crumbles to the floor
Begs for thing never wanted before
Take my time, take my life
Take total control
And it’s coming clearer to me
As it’s coming nearer to me
Can’t run this race that’ll never end
Can’t play this game that I’ll never win
I can’t find the strength to fight it
Feeding on me, this fucking parasite
Buried deep, in my soul
And now it’s starting to take its toll
Taking more than I have to give
And it keeps me alive while it beats me to live
Can I bear with this malady?
Can I stand this infirmity?
And I beg it will leave me to die
But it sucks out my heart while it keeps me alive
And it’s gonna pound on me
As it’s coming down on me
I can’t run this race…
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POISON
The more I look inside myself
The more I fear the things I see
I can feel this poison burning
As the blood flows, out of me
I can’t see the point in fighting
The losing battle raging inside of me
The mind is willing, the flesh is weak
I cannot fight something I cannot see
I will breath in this rancid air
And taste the stench of impurity
And I will drink this cup of poison
Feel it burning, feel it tear
The insides out of me
I don’t think that I can take much more
But if it doesn’t kill me it’ll make me stronger
And I don’t need a God to believe in
To give a false sense of security
The hole I dig is getting deeper
The hill I climb is getting steeper
I cannot lose,I must succeed
The price of failure, I can’t concede
And as I lay on this bed of sorrow
And feel the pain washing over me
I will drink this cup of poison
Feel it burning, feel it tear
The insides out of me
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POSSESSION
It’s right to suffer
sometimes
it hurts to be alone with you
It’s so clear cut
You want me to fill your dreams
A (k)night to save a lifetime
To give you everything you need
I’m not your possession
Your fears are your own
I’m not your possession
You’ll face life alone
Another time
Another story
Some other instance, not these
Another day to break a promise
Another way to make you bleed
It’s so unreal, your desires
I’m a man, not machine
To give you love when you want it
To be the answer to your dreams
I’m not your possession
Your fears are your own
.I’m not your possession
You’ll face death alone.
(It goes beyond fear and pain and death,It is unendurable,
and it varies from individual to individual.
The thing that is in room 101 is the worst thing in the world)
Alone
You feel so alone
You’re all alone
It tears you apart
It rips out your heart
But you’re all alone
You’re all alone
There’s nobody there
And nobody cares
And you feel alone
You feel alone
You feel
You feel
You feel
You feel
Alone
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RECANT
Once upon a time
I thought that I could make you mine
You never cared at all.
I held you in my heart, so close so long
You never gave gave me anything at all.
The blood that’s on your hands is from my heart
You ripped apart, you whipped it to the floor.
Streaks across my face, it sits above my bedroom door
Laughing
Nevermore.
Promises for life I made
They died, they passed away
The day you said goodbye.
And as you turned and walked away,
It killed me
Buried everything I felt inside.
I laid in wait in desperation
Trying just to find a way to be again.
And now that I’ve been resurrected,
I know I will never let you in again
So you can tear me down again
When you think you know what you want
When you think you know what you need
You’re gonna look back
You never will find me
Now that you have set me free,
My absolution is complete
I recant all I said I’d be
I owe you nothing.
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SANCTUARY
Reflections in the mirror
A shadow of what I am
The intensity’s increasing
And I’ve taken all I can
A door somewhere is opened
I look into the room
From the corner something beckons
Like a whisper from inside a tomb
I see an exit,
But I can’t deem to run
I’m starting to think
This problem’s just begun
I step into the darkness
I’m reaching overload
I’ll tear apart the system
To find something to hold.
All I want is Sanctuary
It’s something I’ll never have
I walk in to the distance
I’ll fade in to your past
Balancing on the edge
I find myself falling, again
Losing control for a moment
,I’m gonna have to live with this pain
(Even the most primitive societies have an innate respect for the insane.)
And one more time I step across the line
Something inside me turns
And as I look behind
I see that there’s no chance for my return
Diving over the edge
Submission in the end
Acquiesce completely
I’m gonna die with this pain.
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SILENCE
(This is prison)
(Life and for motherfucking now on)
(This is prison)
(You’ve got to deal with the consequences)
Every day the noose gets tighter
Can every issue be black and white
We march to a different beat
While the collective mind is moving to the right
When is your body not your own?
Why does your mind need a chaperone?
They’ll take your freedoms every one
Will you notice, when they’re all gone?
(This is prison)
(Life and for motherfucking now on)
(This is prison)
(You’ve got to deal with the consequences)
Burning books in the name of God
They imprison those who break no laws
No one can silence the censor
It’s time to shout in our defense
Why should they choose, what I see?
Can they decide what I’ll read?
Will they control what I hear?
Why do they hide, that which they fear?
Silence.
Silence the censor
(This is prison)
(Life and for motherfucking now on)
(This is prison)
(You’ve got to deal with the consequences)
Every day the clock is ticking
The lines thinner between wing and right
The choice is yours, will you go kicking?
Or on your knees in your bed at night?
If you let then steal your mind
Your hands are tied, there’s no compromise
They’ll take your freedoms, every one
They won’t stop
'Til they’re gone
Silence
Silence the censor
Silence
Silence is death.
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THE EDGE
Looking from the bottom
From the bottom up
A perspective of which I’ve had enough
Living my life on the other side
I was born with nothing
With nothing I will die
Fortunes on the back of the working class
Take refuge in the fact all things must pass
And the time will come, you’ll join the rest
You’ll do the dance macabre with the angel of death
Reflections of the way things might have been
Cause you believe in hell, now you’re payingFor your sin
And the time will come, you’ll take the test
You’ll dance forever with the angel of death
The edge, we’re on, the edge
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TOM
(Remember I’m the boss, and I give all the orders)
God you take me so seriously
It’s not a challenge, it’s an impossibility
You don’t care what this pressure is doing to me
You keep on taking ’tis there’s nothing left inside of me
You take and I give, though you’ve got more than you need
You tear at my wounds and you suck while I bleed
You wallow in greed like a pig in a sty
You laugh at my pain, you turn your back when I die
No one’s gonna save your life when you’re drowning
No one’s gonna give a shit when you die
All your friends like to tell you you’re the greatest
All your friends all tell you but your friends all lie
You can go to hell with all your good intentions
Your two-faced lies are beneath contempt
Cause if I crumble and die with a lethal infection
You’d just check of my name on your weekly inspection
I don’t even think that you can get an erection
Without looking int he mirror at your own reflection
No one’s gonna save your life when you’re drowning
No one’s gonna give a fuck when you die
All your friends like to tell you you’re the greatest
All your friends all tell you but your friends all lie
They lie.
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UNCLE
(Even pretending is better with a loving person nearby)
(An uncle)
Fifty years you’ve wanted to die,
But all you got was numb
You decided your life wasn’t worth the kill
So you decided to take me along
I won’t be dragged in that hole
Your dark and filthy hole
And I’ll spit on your grave
Laugh at your grave
Sing at your grave
I’ll dance on your grave
Have a drink and celebrate
The day you go to Hell
Fifty years you’ve wanted to kill
But all you did was run
You wanted to touch, but why did you touch
,Something that was so young?
Something to drag down in that hole
So you wouldn’t be all alone
And I’ll spit on your grave
Laugh at your grave
Sing at your grave
I’ll dance on your grave
Motherfucker.
(Even pretending is better with a loving person nearby)
(An uncle)
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WEASEL
You say we’re brothers and you know how I’ve felt
You take my trust and you swear that you’ll help
You twist around until you’ve taken control
You won’t be happy ’tis you’ve taken it all
You think you own us and you think that you made us
You think our talent somehow makes you creative
You think your standing near the fire makes you the flame
But when we get burned then you won’t take any blame
You suck the marrow out of other people’s bones
You live our lives and you call it your own
You build your empire on other people’s broken dreams
You bleed us dry and you wonder why we call you
Weasel
You have no concept of what it is to try
You get your motivation selling us lies
You think you’re God but all know that you’re evil
And when you die we’re gonna all say that you were a
Weasel
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WHAT YOU CAN'T SEE
I never looked, into my heart
I never thought it’d tear itself apart
Now it’s bleeding
Always knew, the world was hard
Life could be so cold and grey
Struggle just to stay alive
And it kills me
It’s not unusual
It’s part of me
You think you know me
But what you can’t see
Is that things aren’t always,
The way it seems.
I can’t erase it
I cannot make it go way
Can’t take it back
If it kills me
I made my bed
Now I can’t sleep
Lay my head down just to dream
But it turns to Hell
Wake up screaming
It’s not unusual…
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WRONG SIDE
(This is the dark age, that began and ended within the lifetime of this generation)
(This is the long night)
(People have died here)
Burning, searing, blinding rage
Another war, is there no other way?
The balance of nature has been blown into space
Poisoned resource we will never replace
We should have seen, we should have known
While we were sleeping, a malignant cancer has grown
Technological advancements can’t cure disease
But it could bring this world falling to its knees
We’re on the wrong side of suicide…
Filth in the air, death in the ground
Chemical warfare, drag us down
Our leaders are fat, while the people can’t eat
(The cauldron will boil over, and spill into the streets)
Industrial accident is a seaside kill
Don’t want to stop
They never will
Don’t want to see
Don’t want to think
Don’t want to know
Don’t want to hear
Shit
We’re on the wrong side…
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YOU GIVE ME LOVE
You give me love
You give me torture
Give me lies and pain
And he deepest kind of sorrow
You give me hate
Give me emptiness
Give me a hole
That I can fall in to forever
You give me love
You give me peace
Give me hatred
Give me whips and chains
And a weight around my heart
You give me freedom
Give me terror
Give me a rope
I’ll hang myself forever
You give me love
Love
She comes and she goes
She does what she please
She goes when she comes
She gets on her knees
She screams
Beat me
Kill me
Tear me apart
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